from your mirror.. with loveStand at meGlare at meRantAnd pullYour hair at me.Reward mewith tearsyour eyes likedaggers and spears.I'm not cruelJust. Honest.
Letter To a StrangerYou do not recognize my nameNor am I in knowledge of yoursThough we have never met beforeI feel the need to speak with youTo tell you stories of my lifeAnd you provide me with the sameBut before we start a friendshipI wish to ask you a few thingsThus, your undivided focusIs what I need from you right nowCan you pay fervant attentionTo every word that passes my lips?In years past, I have met peopleWho love surface phenomenaAnd fail to dive deeper than thatRefuse to connect ideasWill you hear the depths of my verseAnd perceive me for who I am?And many of these same peopleHave done nothing to assist meWith any hardship I have facedHave not been there to support meDo you keep an eye out for friendsTo have their backs in trying times?When there arrives a dire momentThat requires a frank dialogueAnd an unfettered honestyWithout any hesitationWould you call out my behaviourWhen it is less than savory?All these things I ask in my searchFor a deep, genuine friends
BullyShh.Shut up.Don'tSayAnything.Run.Faster.Faster.Faster.Stop.Scream.Fear.Die.Demons in the shadowsTwistingTurningStaring.Watch yourselfBleeding.Quiet now.Hush, child.They'll find a wayTo get you.Beatings, swallowing you.Scars, defining you.You.Breaking.Crying.Dying.After allYou know you're weak.You can't fight a bullyWhen the bully's inside of you.
So What Do I Do?If only I could read your mindIf only I could interpret you emotionsUnderstand what you're going throughSee through your eyesHear through your earsFeel through your heartIf only I knew how to help youBut I can'tAnd I don'tAnd it's killing meSo what do I do?Tell me.
Music is my everythingMusic is my everythingMusic is my soul, my lifeI listen intently, feelingas calm as the oceans surfaceMusic is my friends, My familyits my lullaby, our loving songI will die saving those peoplewho I regaurd close to in my lifeMusic saves me, never lets me goI sing along, to unknown wordsBu the makes me feel realIm not a dream, like a personMusic saves my soul, my life,I live for my friends, my family,they are my everything,they are my life, my soul,my headphoneless music,I will protect themwith my own life.Music is the soul,I will listen intently,singing along to unknown words
Two Sides to Every StoryCan't believe you're not here. | Can't you see I'm still here?I thought you were my fear. | Being silent is my fear.Now I just want you back. | I'll always have your back.I have to keep this on track. | I will keep it on track.I'm sorry that I hurt you. | I'm sorry that I hurt you.I'm not sure what to do. | I wonder what you'll do.A slight buzz is what I feel. | My thoughts you barely feel.I wonder if you're real. | I promise that I'm real.I'll never forget the pain. | I'm sorry for all the pain.You drove me so insane. | You're not really insane.What if it happens again? | It will never happen again.How can I call you my friend? | You are my closest friend.I just want to be happy. | I want you to be happy.Can I still be me? | Can you accept me?
Fake WonderlandA place where you want to breathe,But you cannot get enough air.A place that you want to leave,But you can’t, you are in despair. Freedom is something I wanted long ago.They used to tie me up with a rope.I am packing and now I am ready to go,To rebuild, to change it all there is no hope. In lies we have to swim every day,To love we are not allowed anymore.Anything you want you are not able to say,They throw you in a room and lock the door. A fake wonderland that no one can escape,If your body is gone, your soul will stay.The truth they can no longer shape,They want to throw it to the sea away! You freed me from this chain,Now my soul can for a while rest.I want to love you, but I am insane:To alter this realm I try my best!
My voice?I tried to smile,laugh through the pain,but it's been a while,I think I'm insane.I can't hear my own voice.The one that says what I want.Now I have no choice.You never did, it taunts.It tells me what I should say.It tells me who I am.It tells me everyday.Am I the lion or the lamb?Am I as weak as I feel,or as strong as I pretend?Am I cold and hard as steel,or just waiting for it to end?Who am I?Do I really want to know?I end with a sigh.The voice is telling me to go.
FragilityI desperately hold onto the notion that I'm strong.Yet no matter how hard I try,I'm still fragile.I surround myself with friends,yet I've never felt more alone.Anyone I ever get close to,just ends up leaving me in the end.A broken facade,cracked for an instant.Only to be sealed back upwith the glue of unwanted solitude.
I Used To BeI used to be so optimisticI used to pray and hope and loveBut I closed my eyes and lost itAnd now I live in lands of frostGrowing up killed all my dreamsIt made me see the WorldI used to laugh and love and breatheBut now I'm caught in life so coldI used to be so sure of livingI used to smile to myselfUnaware of the World I lived inAnd unaware of strength of wealthI'll never be what I did dreamI'll never see the world I wantedI can't afford to still believeIn dreams that only ended haunted
HopeWhat would you do,When it's all over?Would you stand up,Straight as mountains old,And shrug your shoulders?It might be;Your final end.But would it be worse,If you had waited?How could you have known,This was it?Would you have just stood,Back like rivers bold,And watched it's demise?Like pariah zealots above,Gazing down from,Black flower skies?Why should you,Have thought to reconsider?Would you have just given up,And let minute things,Slip by and slide away?Was it to be your own idiocy?Or breath of ignorance,Destroying the fragile dark,From the mighty light;This very day?What was it that made you,Stay here to breathe?Was it that inky niggle in,The chaos of your mind,And that instinct within,To just carry on and cope?Most would declare that,You are an angel,But some say withoutCourage: there is only hope.
Fortress of SorrowI may be brokenbut you cannot mend meYou cannot get closeYou will never befriend meFor I have built wallsaround my shattered heartThey keep me togetherand they tear me apartThey keep what is left of meSafe from attackThey keep me bottled upand hold my emotions backThey shield me from this blackened worldand within them I shall hideBut these cold walls are my self made prisonand I am trapped insideThey keep me from being hurt againbut they are my greatest sinFrom the moment they were fabricatedI haven't let anyone inNo matter how many timesI admit that I have a problemNobody will ever be able to help meBecause I refuse to let themI have become so guardedI have imprisoned myselfI have become so untrustingI lost faith in my own mindI have become so lostI have misplaced my own humanityI have become so brokenYou can never pick up the piecesBecause if you break down these wallsand breach the heart of the problemmy deepest fearis that there will be nothing t
The girl in the cornerYou watch and wait, as people walk by.A shy little girl with much on her mind.Know one knows her for she is a stranger.But shes knows you and your constant behavior.Who is is this girl?What is her name? That single word she may never say... ~ Chaosemmy