So What Do I Do?If only I could read your mindIf only I could interpret you emotionsUnderstand what you're going throughSee through your eyesHear through your earsFeel through your heartIf only I knew how to help youBut I can'tAnd I don'tAnd it's killing meSo what do I do?Tell me.
from your mirror.. with loveStand at meGlare at meRantAnd pullYour hair at me.Reward mewith tearsyour eyes likedaggers and spears.I'm not cruelJust. Honest.
BullyShh.Shut up.Don'tSayAnything.Run.Faster.Faster.Faster.Stop.Scream.Fear.Die.Demons in the shadowsTwistingTurningStaring.Watch yourselfBleeding.Quiet now.Hush, child.They'll find a wayTo get you.Beatings, swallowing you.Scars, defining you.You.Breaking.Crying.Dying.After allYou know you're weak.You can't fight a bullyWhen the bully's inside of you.
Invisible GirlMaybe this was meant to be?Her never ending misery.This was what fate had planned,Spent moments gone in a flash.So now she would be that invisible girlNo one cares to know her world.Lost in their own thoughts and dramasNot a moment spent for her.Never again will she trustNot a soul deserves to knowWho she is and who she wants to beAre only for her to know.
FragilityI desperately hold onto the notion that I'm strong.Yet no matter how hard I try,I'm still fragile.I surround myself with friends,yet I've never felt more alone.Anyone I ever get close to,just ends up leaving me in the end.A broken facade,cracked for an instant.Only to be sealed back upwith the glue of unwanted solitude.
I Am One Of Jehovah's WitnessesI am a thirteen year old girl.I am a poet.I am beautiful in my own way.I am powerful.I am unique.I am special.I am not crazy.I am not worthless.I am not brainwashed.I am a human being.I make mistakes. And I admit that.I cause trouble, sometimes a lot of trouble.I have a disorder that affects me day to day.I don't think I'm perfect. In fact, I know I'm not.I tolerate the ignorance.I tolerate the pain.I tolerate the hatred.I tolerate the disgusted looks.I accept the fact that I am different.But can't you accept the fact that we're exactly the same?
Down down downTell me it's just a phasenot knowing who I amBut it's been much more than daysand I still don't understandI feel like I am wrongI never do it rightOh I'm really not that strongI don't think I'll win the fight.Build a wall, standing tallcan't you hear my callPieces of my heart breaking down down downEverytime the world is spinning round round roundCan anybody seeThe pain inside of meOr do you all enjoy just watching me bleedThe wall I'm building highit's raising everytimeeverytime I want to crywhen you make me hurt insideBuild a wall, standing tallcan't you hear my callPieces of my heart breaking down down downEverytime the world is spinning round round roundCan anybody seeThe pain inside of meOr do you all enjoy just watching me bleedStop making me feel like thisstop making me feel so lowis it so hard to missreally don't you know?I'm this because of youand even though you knewthere's nothing I can doBuild a wall, standing tallcan't you hear my callPie
My voice?I tried to smile,laugh through the pain,but it's been a while,I think I'm insane.I can't hear my own voice.The one that says what I want.Now I have no choice.You never did, it taunts.It tells me what I should say.It tells me who I am.It tells me everyday.Am I the lion or the lamb?Am I as weak as I feel,or as strong as I pretend?Am I cold and hard as steel,or just waiting for it to end?Who am I?Do I really want to know?I end with a sigh.The voice is telling me to go.
Fake WonderlandA place where you want to breathe,But you cannot get enough air.A place that you want to leave,But you can’t, you are in despair. Freedom is something I wanted long ago.They used to tie me up with a rope.I am packing and now I am ready to go,To rebuild, to change it all there is no hope. In lies we have to swim every day,To love we are not allowed anymore.Anything you want you are not able to say,They throw you in a room and lock the door. A fake wonderland that no one can escape,If your body is gone, your soul will stay.The truth they can no longer shape,They want to throw it to the sea away! You freed me from this chain,Now my soul can for a while rest.I want to love you, but I am insane:To alter this realm I try my best!
I FellI fell down into a hole of despair,and felt a pain that no one can bear.Lost in the dark and stuck without a way,I feel less pain the longer I stay.My feelings and emotions are slowly numbing,my hopes and my dreams are already crumbling.I fell down and now I can't get back up,now all I can see is a half empty cup.Lost my strength and lost my will,all I can do now is just stay still.I look up to see the bright eyes,staring at me while my soul slowly dies.One step and another yet I still can't see the light,another step, and I fall back into the night.Here is a darkness I cannot stand,my hope is holding on by the last strand.Someone save me before I completely lose my way,please don't leave me here for another day...
Two Sides to Every StoryCan't believe you're not here. | Can't you see I'm still here?I thought you were my fear. | Being silent is my fear.Now I just want you back. | I'll always have your back.I have to keep this on track. | I will keep it on track.I'm sorry that I hurt you. | I'm sorry that I hurt you.I'm not sure what to do. | I wonder what you'll do.A slight buzz is what I feel. | My thoughts you barely feel.I wonder if you're real. | I promise that I'm real.I'll never forget the pain. | I'm sorry for all the pain.You drove me so insane. | You're not really insane.What if it happens again? | It will never happen again.How can I call you my friend? | You are my closest friend.I just want to be happy. | I want you to be happy.Can I still be me? | Can you accept me?
never thought I'd be like thisI never thoughtI'd be like this,with broekn smilesand scarred up wrists.No, I never thoughtI'd be like thisback when my worldwas filled with joy.never thoughtI would cry so much,and have to rememberfaded out scars.I never thoughtI would feel alonewhen I was a little girl.Back when days were simpleand cooties still existed.When I'd smile and play,and had such big dreams.of reaching for the sky,of singing on stage,and becoming president.but it never crossed my mindthat I'd feel pain,and cry so muchand that my pleas would go unheardI thought the worldwas a happy place,for me as a little girl,and I never thoughtI'd be this way.all torn apart,and hoping to be fixed.never thought thepain would lastI thought there'd atleast be someone there,someone who loved meand cared for me.but never as a little girl.had I thoughtthose dreams would betaken awayand I'd be hereleft in pain.no I never thoughtas a little girlthat i'd end upthe way I am...
The girl in the cornerYou watch and wait, as people walk by.A shy little girl with much on her mind.Know one knows her for she is a stranger.But shes knows you and your constant behavior.Who is is this girl?What is her name? That single word she may never say... ~ Chaosemmy